I skipped last Friday because it was my birthday week. I banned cake from the house! Lol. I’m struggling – a LOT. I feel so stupid for allowing myself to splurge during the holidays because now it just seems like I struggle so hard. Here’s my biggest problem – me inside my own head! I know eating my snacks everyday helps me stay on track, yet I can’t seem to unglue my butt from my office chair to go cut up my fruit. I can’t seem to remember to bring my protein, so you want to know the stupid crap I tell myself? I already forgot my protein, may as well just call this day a wash! Can you BELIEVE that nonsense?
I’m great at giving sound advice on how to live a healthy lifestyle, mostly because I’ve been battling, researching and educating myself for so long now, that I KNOW how to do it. My biggest hurdle is me. I know this. I’ve gotten so mad at myself that I’ve sat down and cried. Food addiction has to be one of the hardest addictions to overcome. I’ve heard it before and I believe it wholeheartedly. I can’t escape it. I have to eat to survive and I’m exposed to it constantly. I can’t avoid it like other addictions.
You know something, though? I can’t sit around feeling sorry for myself. Why? Because it doesn’t get me what I want. I KNOW how to do this. I KNOW how to be healthy, damnit. It’s time to stop the excuses and do it. My biggest problems: water, snacks, & exercise.
So I’ve decided to go back to basics. First, the exercise I had been doing is almost impossible during the summer. Cooking dinner, swimming, then cleaning? No thank you. So, this weekend, I’m hooking up my DVD player so I can FINALLY start my Piyo videos.
Going back to prepping. I preach this constantly and now it’s time for me to listen to myself. One of the reasons I was so successful last year is because I prepped for work like a mad woman. I’m going back to that. My body NEEDS balanced snacks in order to keep my insulin levels stable. It’s time to stop being lazy and go back to prepping all my fruit and protein on Sundays.
And lastly, water. I LOVE coffee. As a matter of fact, if I ever had to be stranded somewhere and could only have one resource I would choose coffee. But, my body desperately needs water. I just need to accept that fact. The great news is, I don’t have to give up my coffee completely, I just need to cut back.
I asked myself this morning if this is really what I wanted. Do I really want to be healthy? The only answer I could think of was “hell yeah I do!” There really is no other choice. At 43 years old, it will get harder and the toll of continually living an unhealthy lifestyle will just continue to deteriorate my body. The time is now.
I’m going to end this by saying, we all struggle, even the smartest, brightest, strongest people you know struggle with something in some capacity. We are flawed by design. Failure is part of being human. Don’t let your doubts and insecurities get the best of you. Embrace it to make you better and fuel you on your journey.
Have a great weekend. Stay Picky ya’ll!!