Monday I decided to recommit to my Healthy Journey. It’s been almost a full, off-wagon, set fire to the plan, type of year. It was completely a stupid move to allow myself to go off plan and indulge in the first place. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, if you are a food addict, DO NOT ALLOW YOURSELF FREEDOM. It is the same as allowing a drug addict or alcoholic to binge on their drug or drink of choice. I am here to tell you, starting over is harder. So. Much. Harder.
When I first began my journey on WW in January of 2018, I was in the right mindset. I worked hard and lost more than 50 lbs. Had I stayed the course, I would probably be at or very close to my goal weight. Instead, I’m sitting here more than 15 pounds heavier. Believe me when I tell you, I’ve constantly and consistently beat myself up over it, but haven’t made any move to change it. Until now.
I can’t go back and undo what I have done, but what I can do is continue to try and push myself forward. I have a goal and that goal is simple, I want to be a healthier version of myself. What about being skinny? Yeah, that is not really an appeal to me. I don’t mind being a “thick” woman, but, I want, more than anything, to be a healthier woman. A healthier mom to my kid. And frankly, I want to feel better in this body. So, it’s time to stop my pity-party and move TF on. That’s right, TF on.
How has my first week (or 5days) been back at it? Hell! OMG, trying to get back into the swing of drinking water and giving up my coffee is a killer. I’ll get there, but it will be a process. I’ve done good at getting in my snacks everyday. Something my body has to have. Wednesday, a co-worker brought me cinnamon rolls, ugh! Yes, I ate one. Then proceeded to try and give them away the rest of the day. By Thursday afternoon, all but 2 were gone. And yes (hangs head), I ate them both. Then Friday it got worse. I didn’t have my snacks because someone brought in donuts and I couldn’t resist. But that’s ok. I refuse to dwell on it. Tomorrow is a new day, next week is a new week.
This weekend for me will be filled with food prep. Next week I will start trying to get in some physical movement. For me, that is cleaning my house. Any movement for me is a good thing. I am lazy. I have osteoarthritis in my joints, so moving is painful. I find the best way to avoid the pain is to just not do much. This isn’t a good plan. So, it’s time to bite the bullet and deal with the pain for a little bit. After awhile, I know it won’t hurt so much.
So here is to second (or third, fourth, 105th) chances. To the prusuit of being healthy and living my best life.
TGIF & Happy Weekend!
“Change Your mind, Change your life”
YOU. ARE. WORTHY.